Yes, EpiJunky is a little drunk. And I'm going against all that my Mom taught me and putting it in writing. For the whole world to read. Okay, so for both of you who regularly read my blog to read.
Tonight, with less than four weeks to go in the Medic program, I was unceremoniously "booted" from the class.
I hurt my back sometime last week... I can't even pinpoint the day or time it happened. All I know is it started to hurt on Tuesday (as in Tuesday July 23rd as opposed to Tuesday July 30th.) By the time my brother's wedding rolled around (last friday) it was unbearable. The following day I forced myself to go to the ER as I could barely walk. Whatever I did, I did it right. 10+ days later and I'm still suffering and resorting to laying flat on my back on the hardwood floors when I attempt to sleep.
The reason I'm out of the program? I'm only allowed 4 absences per module, and with the two I had this week thanks to my back, I'm at five. Hell, I can barely take five steps without my back spasming, let alone drive an hour north, and participate in class. I can't belive i'm in this position.
I'm not suicidal, but I'm definitely feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point. I have to repeat (and pay for, I'm assuming) the entire third Module. I don't have the money, and... Well, hell, I don't have the money. Everything I've gone through over the past year, all the time spent... All the time spent.
Okay, I need to get back on the horse and ride on. This is not the end of the world, right? I did pretty crappily (is that even a word? according to blogger, no) this Mod anyway. I'll figure out how to get through this and end up a better Medic for it, right?
Right?
For both of you reading, I'm sorry for whining. I just need a hug right now.
A little drunk, with no apologies.
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*Cyber hug.*
Just remember, they don't print your scores on your National Registry card. They don't even care how many classes you took before you finished one. ;)
I am so sorry ... I know how crushed I would have been if I'd had to drop out. I actually came very close to not finishing -- when I was in my last semester, doing my internship, the county where I was riding raised its alert level to Code Orange and decreed that all ride-along students were banned. What, were we potential terrorists?! Whatever. So I scrambled to find a place to finish my required 50 calls as an ALS provider. I ended up testing for National Registry a full semester behind my other classmates. Nightmare! I didn't think I'd have a chance to finish.
So hang in there ... hopefully you'll be back in the game soon. *hugs*
I am a huge fan of letter writing. Is there anyway you can write a letter to the head of the organization in an attempt to re-take the class WITHOUT re-paying for it. I wouldn't write to the teacher, I would send it to the head of the school, the president, head mistress, whoever it is. It's worth a shot, the worst they can say is no. And you're right where you are now.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Good luck!
p.s. Got here through Ambulance Driver who said you needed a hug.
You now have a new fan.
AD: Funny you said that about the Registry card... My Basic teacher told me the same thing when I was talking to him last night.
Pixie: Oh my GOODNESS I don't know what I'd do if I had been in your position. I'm glad that you finished even if it was a semester behind. If I can drum up 1500 bucks that's all I'll be behind.
cardiogirl: I have one hell of a letter drafted asking for exactly what you said. I also have a list of people in the company I can send this letter to. I just don't want to make any threats (I was harrassed by an instructor of the class)until I have the paperwork offering me a spot in the next mod. I dont want them going back and retracting their offer (then I'd have to repeat the entire class). I'm babbling a bit tonight, I hope that made sense.
NYC EMS: You made me smile, thank you so much. I needed it.
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