What I Did Not Do Today...

Today, October 19th, 2008...

Today I did not spend any quality time with my son. He was busy doing far more important things to an 8-year-old, playing with his best friend. And I'm okay with that.

Today I didn't have it in me to call my best friend. Or my former partner. Or Sue, or Bri, or Kelly or Jodi or Rebel or Regina or Matt or anyone else.

Today I didn't get to put on a uniform, take a pulse, a blood pressure, or touch a patient in any way. I didn't buy a coffee for a sleepy partner, laugh until Diet Pepsi shot out of my nose, or wipe away anyone's tears. I didn't bitch about STNA's, Dispatchers, Lieutenants or management.

Today I didn't pick up my camera once. I didn't watch football, I didn't scrapbook, I didn't carve a pumpkin or rake leaves, or sleep in, or do anything that a normal person should do on a beautiful Fall Sunday like today.

Today I don't think that I brought a smile to anyone's face.

Days like these are hard.

Today I didn't play out in the sun. I merely walked beneath it.

7 comments:

Nikki said...

you and me both.

let's make tomorrow better, okay?

Epijunky said...

Nikki: Agreed. Let's make tomorrow better.

Laura said...

I've had lots of those days. And for a while it was every day. But life has a way of changing when you least expect it sometimes. There is a sun to bask in (even though it's cold out). I've found it again and am beginning to enjoy it.

Hope every new day is better for you!

:o) Laura

Ninja Medic said...

I'm having one of those days today.

Epijunky said...

Hey Ninja Medic...Hang in there.

Neo42 said...

Whatever you didn't do yesterday.... there's always today. Or tomorrow. y'know.

lucy said...

Your wrong Epi...you offered me a hug and an ear...that brought a smile to my face. Thanks.